before it get too shit

也不知道着么了，突然间想对明荃说声对不起。

我有时还真奇怪。

Recently I began to find out I have been suffering from one syndrome.

The big head syndrome.

If you met me over these few days, you will realise that I keep using the phrase - "I will..."

Before I knew it, it begans to irritate some of my friends.

To put it simple, it's like 纸上谈兵。Talk cock only, but never do.

Maybe is due to the over dose of self confidence. I must be careful of what I want to say and what I want to do from now onwards.

the lack of updates is due to fact that right now i'm kinda busy with my iap. that's why my brain can't function the way is used to be like before.

recently came across some jay chuo's lastest song. i'm not a very big fan of his music, but however there is one music video that caught my attention.



don't know why i feel attached to this mv.
maybe it's because the lines in 04:52-04:57

that cup of kopi

seriously my head was like in outer space and all the negative thoughts came pouring into my brain.

it's bad enough when last min everything cock up. it's also bad enough when you read your horoscope and it says today it's not going to be a good day for you, aquarius.

i ordered a cup of kopi, sat down and calm myself down. i almost had a mental breakdown before that. suddenly someone came into my mind. i reached out for my handphone and called grinding pole small girl for help. she definitely been a great help to me. unlike the stupid bear giving me ideas in which i believe they can only work in 偶像剧.

everything went well.

even my mum also says, "加油!" :)

bon

finally i have decided and make up my mind. i'm going for it. i guess i wasn't being truthful to myself all this while.

like what bear says, "if it she is so damn bloody hell good, go for it. don't wait until till she's gone then you keep cursing yourself like a bady boy like you always do." True, i always hesitate. giving all sorts of excuses to myself and acting like i'm the victim to this reality.

"time to move on." i heard it going through my mind.
this isn't the first time i said it, but i hope that this will be my last.

Yes, thoughts of elina will still surface on my mind. but let's just put that to be past tense. seriously.

at least i hoped that i could say it to myself, "I got do ma!!"

Cheers, praying for everytihing.

Bread talk

When i had nothing, i had her to be my everything.

When i began to have everything, i had nothing of her left behind.

Quote of the day: Please do not mix bread and love together, it tastes sour.

dinner was great last night.
but coffee is evil. damn evil.
i love coffee but i hate the night after drinking coffee.

currently listening to Ken Hirai- Lovin' you

hip hip hu boardcast!!!

i just called ms lee and found out that i'm given a second chance to do boardcast media module!! YAY. NO REPEAT! I REPEAT NO REPEAT!!! (wth i'm talking abt!?)
this is kan si lan heng la, i tot die liao confirm in deep shit liao. but thank ms lee for talking to tck.. thank you veri much. so i will to say this some my frenz.

To bear: sorry i'm going to graduate with you at the same time! Dun worry we might get into the same platoon in the army. ;)
To keng: haha cb kia, kiss my ass good bye to NYP sia. i let you have all the girls when i graduate. happi rotting in NYP
To zhong: eh, maybe time to really do the assignments liao hor?


I'm damn fucking happy that i will not repeat sia. :)

Read in between the lines and fill in the blanks.


currently listening to Extreme - More Than Words

the best way to end the day is to meet up with your 13 years old friend and enjoy a cup of irish coffee after dinner.

My turn to say thank you to my friend. =)

sleepy

*correction- i mean i have to wake earlier to avoid seeing her.

in a state of tireness, i saw her again at the bus stop.
i was so so tired that she came up to me and asked:

she: How come you so tired?
me: (unable to think properly) I slept late yesterday. Around two am

she: How come?
me: I working until 11.45 leh.

she: Oh....
me: Eh, your bus is here you don't want to board ah?

she: I come over and talk to you first ma.
me: oh.. okok

she: So i go off first liao, bye
me: bye.


after she left then i realise i was actually talking to her just now. LOL

So i have learnt, in order to see her at the bus stop again i have to:
-set alarm to 6.45 and wake up at 7.20
-leave the house around 8
-reach city hall interchange around 8.30
-reach clementi around 8.50
-go down to the bus stop and you will see her with the racket

shit, i have to force myself to wake up earlier.......

when i was just still a kid

One year ago today i started working at FEP isurf. One year later today i am STILL working at isurf, however i am now stationed at orchard towers instead. wow gosh one freaking year has passed. but hor this job no one year bouns leh not like the *toot* mcdonalds, but i got treat from the bosses. woopie!

speaking of which, today is also the children's day. erm i forgot how many years ago that i last celebrated this day. so much has changed since then. i still remember the days of which there are no handphones, no internet, no porn(wait there is la), no girlfriends boyfriends, no clubbing, no alcohol, no fuck your mother all that. Just plain fun, laughter and sweat.

i loved the days where i can run around the school field like that there is no tomorrow. i can slide along the stairways until the teachers catch me. i can play tamiya cars along the corridors until i cannot find them. i can tease the girls until they are so pek chey they come and pinch my arm. i really can lie with snow patrol and just forget the world.

There is seriously nothing to worry about lor, is as though the heaven drop down and you take it as a blanket to cover yourself. i missed those days. i missed sennett.

A blink of my eyes, the whole world change. Take a look at myself and began to find i'm 19 years old already. suddenly life is filled with so many choices and soon responsiblity came pouring in. sometimes i wonder izzit we are too eager to grow up. we can look grown up from the outside, but do we have what it takes to be a grown up from the inside?

Happy working one year, jianan. Missed the days eating the cheap bee hoon behind the counter and thinking about her at the same time. =)