下雨天

i never really like rainy days

the worst thing that can ever happen to me is to wake up in the morning to find that it is raining. i will just go back to my sleep and pretend that day doesn't exist.

当下雨天时， 你会不知道划下的其实是淡淡的雨水， 还是你最真实的泪水。

下雨天啊，真让人想躲进贝壳里， 逃离这烦人的潮湿感觉。

Marriage, just a piece of paper or a lifetime commitment?

as usual i had a long chat with fcukers 2 on one particular night when we came across this question about marriage. you see la, we always guess who is going to marry first. the first person that always came into our mind is none other than toad himself. we still got a long way to go so let see our guess zhun bo ^_^
but the real question is, "is marriage the same to guys not girls?"

(warning: This post is not about shooting the girls or protecting the guys. it is just my point of view about marriage. so i'm not refering to all the girls in general. Thank you.
Sixsphere Valentin Lay)
for ladies, marriage is all about going to ROM sign that piece of treaty paper, few months (or maybe years!?) later start to host the wedding ceremony. it's so simple, what you need are cash, wedding rings and a whole bunch of known and unknown relatives and friends to kick off your marriage.

but for some guys, that includes me, prefer to be a bit low profile. i believe that marriage is about two people nia no need to go around 敲罗打鼓 ba. i'm ok about spreading the news from mouth to mouth but is just that i feel is a waste of time and of course money to host a wedding ceremony la. maybe those some rich bastards who came back from US thinks that they have enough money to do it then they will make it grand. call me stingy or what but seriously speaking i think the cost of marriage is about SGD$30.00++ onli.

so why the bother of a wedding ceremony then? it all starts with your ccb girlfriend's mother future mother-in-law. she knows that you are marrying her daughter, she will give you her blessings and ask for a formal ceremony. but actually in her mind she thinks that her daughter 出嫁 leh, she die die also also want let her friends, friend de friend, and her long lost neva contact relatives know also. so it all comes down to wedding ceremony= 面子, the bigger the better, just like the boobs.

but not always is the mother fault, sometimes is the GIRLS fault. i can't understand why they cannot think like the male species sometimes. is usually due to the things they expect from guys. accorading to bear, he thinks that wedding ceremony act as a sense of security given by the guys to the girls. i don't totally disagree with that. but how come they always want that sense of secutity huh? have they even wonder that we guys also want that sense of security one de.
imagine this, you hang out with girls often, soon your girlfriend become jealous and start to rant about, "i don't have sense of security when i'm with you, there is always girls around you blar blar...." so being a good boyfriend you switch to auto gear. but hor, they can hang out with their male friends and still got the cheek to ask you will you be jealous or not!? chao turtle where's our sense of security then!!!

but actually you can't really blame the girls, they have to protect themselves. usually they are the ones providing, so guys should consider that and give her all the best. not too much, not too little. just enough to fill her empty heart.

i like how Mr Johnny Depp handle his relationship. so what they are not offically married, so what Vanessa Paradis is not called Mrs Depp. Just like what himself says, "if you are together and you love each other and are good to each other... for all intents and purposes you are married" i like that line.

so ladies, you want the paper or our hearts? =)

Love is always such a beautiful lie

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A lie to mantain the relationship

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A lie to mantain the trust among the two

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A lie to keep her by your side

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A lie to show her that you love her...

screw upside down

ytd presentation was crap. i think i shouldn't chiong so last min. a lot of things cock up. i didn't expect my com unable the scene in less than 2 hours. so i make a gamble. i decided to try the sch com. in the end, without sleeping the whole night. i reach school ard 7 am and try to render, but the sch com takes freaking 3 hours to render!! i guess luck wasn't on my side. so imagine going to presentation without my demo reel: die lor. i just hope that i dun repeat this module can liao. reach home straight away knock out until this morning 11 am. still nid to cont'd on my modelling yet.. haiz.. late nights again..

pls miss lum ke lian ke lian wo ba....

random rants

how dead can i be when presentation is due on tue and yet i haven touch on my assignment. but nevermind like wat every dmd students will, "we still got tomorrow..." and true i still got the whole of monday to do the slides, finish up the report and building the environment. dun ask mi what i have been doing for the past few days coz my answer will be, eat, sleep and slack.

thursday meet up wif Elina. okay that explains why i neva attend zong yan's grp presentation. she was the one who called me out so you guys dun kbkp first. and i also find no reason to say no, so i went to meet up with her. so i suppose i am being a bastard?? but neither i find it wrong nor i feel guilty. skye is in army but i'm not. she got freedom to call anyone out but she choose me. and if skye is not happy, that's his problem, not mine. i dun give a shit about how he thinks because this is what he had put me through before. i'm doing things and making decision the way i want, not the way to please everyone.

life is so realstic, so ugly sometimes

nowadays i find it hard to communicate with bear. maybe as we grow older, our mind set change. he's changing and i'm changing too. and both of us are going through a big change. while i find it stylish, he find it absurd. i find it old-fashioned, he find it down to earth. suprising he's my oldest buddy but yet we know we can't work together. and you know sometimes is hard to say in his face and i'm only pretending to listening to him while the message exit out from the other ear. but nevertheless, i believe as time goes by, we two still can work it out. dun forget a 12 years buddy wouldn't come and go easily. BUT HOR I STILL FIND THAT I WOULD WANT TO KILL HIM ONE DAY WITH ALL MY 道理!! MUHAHAHAHA

is it a bit too early to plan ahead of our life right now?? i'm already 19 liao. there some 19 years old out there fighting for their future, realising their dreams and yet i am still playing my GBA veri night and doing nothing!!

i'm turning 20 in less than 6 mths time. 20 will be a new milestone of my life. i have a lot of dreams(理想/梦想） but whenever i want to share my dreams with my friends, they will all laugh at me. saying i think too far liao or they are impossible to achieve. true, some dreams are out of bounds. but isn't 人因为梦想而起飞的吗？i dun wan to be the frog in the well anymore, i want to see the world outside and truely experience/feel/observe/hear the things around me.

so here are some of the things i want to accomplish

• get a driving license before i enter army
• backpack to taiwan
• get myself a car when i turn 35
• set up a shop
• and more to come....

everything u have now, u get it with money. i will prove to you that everything i will have, i will earn it with my hands.