okay time to update again. mon nite went supper wif zhong and bear. we went to eat bak ku teh. as you all know, Balestier is famous for their bak ku teh. so i decided to give it a shot. the soup is far most the nicest i have tried, however they don't come cheap. $5 a bowl. wow, but at least it taste nice.

zj hearing that i have taste the balestier bak ku teh liao, decided to bring mi to taste another stall's bak ku teh. this stall one more owning sia, their bak ku si bei tok kong. but their soup lose to the first stall. i find it too pepperish. in case your wondering, the first stall that i went was the one opp. 文东记。 the second one was the famous 发起原 bak ku teh. neh the one gt alot of famous people photos inside one.

wednesday night celebrate my brother's 24th birthday at Devil's. i cant remember when was the last time i celebrate his birthday. 10 yrs ago?? or maybe more than that. since he asked me to join him that night, i find it hard to resist the temptation of alcohol reject my brother invitiation, so i went. my mum was surprise that my bro didn't call her. of coz man, if she was there, i think my bro and me can forget about drinking or getting ourselves tipsy. so i think bro make the right move by not calling her. =)

nice seeing ur own bro getting himself drunk and throwing up in the toliet. coz it was always me getting drunk and sleeping on the floor. finally i got my chance to take revenge.. hehehe.. no la, i'm nt so bad, i did take care of him with the help of ah girl jie (his girlfriend).

i wish that my brother and i can be forever brothers......

yesterday night while i was doing work, i could hear the fireworks from outside the window. suddenly i gt this very sad feeling inside me. i think i have lost a golden chance. to be truth i really really want to go watch the NDP preview, but i had no choice but to give away the tickets. i told myself, next year i must really go down to watch.

finally july is coming to end le. i hope that they will just skip august and jump to september. i dun really want to live through august once more........

nearly gt a shock when X ask me. i nearly let the cat out of the basket bag.

不要说你自己不会后悔你所做的決定

其实到头来受伤还是自己

每个人都有寻找自己幸福的权利

你的Mr Right 总有一天一定会到来

相信我。

busy week busy week i must say, finally catch Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest on tue night. however i think i'm insane or wat, i watch it again on friday with tricia all them. of coz with a little financial support from tricia. Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest is a must watch show, i give it two thumbs and two toes up. it would be best that you watch this show without watching Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl. or else you wouldn't be down dere kao bei kao bu about this or that. of coz you will be blur with some parts of the story but who cares, just freaking watch the show la.

thursday presentation went smoothly. thanks to the group's effect for making the presentation so zai. i tremble a bit when i present, but with my ultimate talking cock skills and super "fake confident looking" expression, i manage to slience the crowd. hahaha bull shitting here, but all i did was constantly looking at my audience(which only includes miss soo, miss tina and erm... zong yan, LOL) sad thing was karen only enter the lecture hall after our group present. WTF!! nvm, next time next time.

黄昏下的琴键太寂寞

来来去去只剩很拙的双手

陪着固执的我

不停弹奏不停地犯错

想起他为你唱歌时的温柔

我会笑着难过

他能给你保护代替我的照顾

这是我最后的祝福

谢谢你的结束冷却后的残酷

谢谢你的知足告诉我别再付出

谢谢你的温度记忆留在最初

谢谢你曾让我幸福

不停唱着愈来愈清楚

想起你看他眼神中的满足

我学会了服输

我只能偷偷地为你祝福

想着手心的感触

想着脸颊的温度

谢谢你那些年为我付出

谢谢你曾让我们幸福

some unhappy things happen last night. i dun really want to talk about it. those who are there should know.

at least i'm not hiding anymore

ya sorry i lied.
i celebrated her birthday yesterday. but but but hor maxine was also there mah, so don't try come scolding me first... maybe is like because skye is in the army and he couldn't celebrate with her that's why she called the two of us. nevermind, maybe we are just spare-tyres. so i wouldn't go deeply in how the birthday celebration goes about, i don't even think you guys even want to hear. so that's the end of story. her birthday, we celebrated, she happy, we all happy. =)

i began to find myself more and more drama king. one week ago, i was miserable and had to resort to drinkinhg. but now i think i'm back to normal again. see i told you is like a cycle. unless there are some miracles happening, i think i will be struck in this cycle for quite some time.

speaking about school, nothing much happen. everyone is rushing for the next thursday presentation. karen's grp gt to present on this thursday. well their presentation was not so bad la, or maybe i wasn't paying much attention.

The dateline is around the corner liao, should i ask? anyone can help me?

happy birthday to you Elina

sorry i wouldn't be there to celebrate with you....

stomach wasn't feeling well right now, maybe is due to the vodkas yesterday night. wasn't really in a good mood afterall elina called. after each conversation with her, i always had this 'i want to go and die' feeling. yesterday was worse, after what we had talked about on the phone. so down came the beers and vodkas. is strange that i had to be drunk in order to tell her that i hate her. i hated her for showing me concerns till now. for what, i don't need your bloody sympathy. i don't want you to still care for me. you know why? because the more you care the more i hurt. you still treat me as a friend. why? because i was someone you knew in the past or because you pity me? if really can, i hope that you would just go back to US with skye.

i drink because i want to piss you off. ya make you so fed up with me so you can continue live happily ever after with skye. please don't care about me can. i finally say to her that we should keep a distance away from each other. i can't bear with it but i know i had to do it.

you wanted someone who can lead you but i only want someone who can walk beside me. you wanted a man but i am a boy only. call me childish or immature if you wan but that's kind of relationship i really want.

i love you with all my heart. Thank you for taking it away.

can you just leave me alone and let me die myself?

random thoughts

zong yan birthday is on 17 july..... omg not another cancer gal >_<

i wasn't sure about what i was thinking through my head. i told myself i had to make a decision in 3 weeks time but currently i decided to hold back again. ya confused.

i hold back because i can't get over her
i hold back because i don't want to hurt anyone
i hold back because i am a coward

you can leave but please return the old me back

first of all happy birthday to si wei aka chris aka *ass****e. =)

just receive a call from her just now. she don't sound ok to me. seems like she's crying over the other end of the phone. i'm worried. very.

can i just close the shop and go look for her?