According to yan, my name has changed from jian an to gay-jian to even more worse, linda michelle jian lay -_-"" i think i'm becoming one of their jie mei le..

for the past two days i have been rotting at home. the only time i step out of my house is when i go over to hair etc. for a hair cut. the rest of time was spent watching the tv at home. last night channel 5 played a veri old movie by bruce willis and samuel L. jackson. is called 'die hard with a vengeance'. yup is the show featuring the famous 4 gallons of water IQ quiz. I recommend zhong should watch this old movie if he haven since he likes IQ quiz so much.

my mum was surprise that his son stayed at home the whole day so she asked,

"never go out wif frenz meh?"
"eh.. one wif gal fren, 2 workin...., i no gal fren so bo bian stay at home lor. "
"oh.. then why never go find one meh?"

when she ask this i was a bit shock then my answer to her was,

"well i did, BUT......................................................................................
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so she went, "hmmm.. then you better dun find wait until blar blar blar..."

see!! standard answer from her.. lol

was bit for late for work because 143 break down at the interchange. so i had to take MRT to orchard.
inside the train some girl someone caught my attention. it was actually a child doing some drawings using colour pencil. i dunno why but for the whole journey my eyes are glued to his drawings. Not because of his drawing skills but maybe because of the drawing itself. I can't really make out what is he drawing but i guess he is drawing the MRT ba since i saw some wheels thingy.

suddenly i have this thought that actually children are the best artist in this world. their drawings always surprise you with fresh ideas and stories. at least their works are not filled with stupid drawing techniques, shades and tone. they produce what i called 'clean and cut' piece of work.

To me, if you can't appericate children works, let alone going to the museum to see all those great artists works. Don't forget, great artists also began drawing when they are a kid.... so nxt time u see a kid drawing, how about showing ur apperication to their drawings

horny little bastards talking abt nie nie

was tokin cock wif toad on msn juz now. we were talking about some shit then end up swearing at each other as usual. then dunno why we bring our girlfriends( my ex) out to say. i was saying about *her* big nie nie the tobby wan to show off say something like this:

ROFL I didn't know breast can erect sia?? then no nid push up bra liao lor.. btw i am not horny nw hor....

piss on mi

pissed#1: your teeth hurts like VERY siao for the past few days and you dunno whether is a toothache or what you can't even smile to your eye candy =(

pissed#2: you can't get to sleep at 2am when the next day lesson starts at 8 am

pissed#3: you get to the bus stop but the freaking 13 took damn long but still haven arrive

pissed#4: suddenly you feel like you need to shit urgently like B2-Bomber taking off ready to bomb Nagasaki again

pissed#5: when you leave the bus stop, 13 came

pissed#6: you end up taking MRT but still late for school

pissed#7: your 12 years buddy say tonight he going to play mahjong so not meeting up le

pissed#8: so the fcuker 4 not meeting up tonight

very pissed #9: and he insist that beacuse it's your fault that the meeting cancel chao turbine sia

pissed#10: so your friday night gonna sucks to the core

pissed#11: you are working while receiving the news that ur beloved lao jie is meeting up wif *** and ***** wha... why i agree to work!!! Na Bei sia...

blur blur blur

zhong complain to me that my entries are getting way too emo nowadays. eh bung sorri la.. cannot be help.. i sad and lonely now.. u find mi a gal then i write love love stories inside here k =)

Watch 'Take The lead' on wednesday at the new Cathay Cineplex. Not a bad show and those americans really noe how to shake their ass.. i learn something new from the show. Next time in club, i'm gonna "touch the ladies with repsect". LOL

Went to Singapore Art Museum on Friday. A nice experience there. I finally understand what 'appreciate' really means le. Finally got my leather belt from the far east shop.

heard from zhong juz now tat he cant help me get the vodka. Damn the bloody airport. But ah boy is going overseas too, so i can use the $$ and ask him buy bombay instead.

Some new shows gonna watch in the cinema.
Click starring Adam Sandler
Scary Movie 4
The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift.

Any interested party??

vodka and teh tarik doesnt mix well, but maybe it will take time??

//

You and I got somethin
But it's all and then it's nuthin to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes through your intentions for me, yeah
And we wake up in the breakdown
With the things we never thought we could be, yeah
I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all
And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone
I am no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah
I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all
And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone
And I dont need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here
And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone
And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
And I can feel you falling
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

The MV(Click)

french teacher rox

bonjour!! guess where i am??
i'm at tric hse updating my blog. todae french lesson is canelled coz the teacher is on mc. lol sia. first day of sch and alreadi so shiok haha.. cant believe tric was the first to be dere!! haha amy as usual late again.
had kopi at Food Junction. then end up at her hse. but dun worry, i'm nt going to *erm* tric.. haha

juz nw amy told mi abt sumthing abt *her*. wha didnt noe amy also go stalk her. ok she said that on her friendster account, all their photos are removed. hmmm.. sound like something is wrong.
check it at tric hse.. well it seems like the suitation is alright to mi la. kinda lost at words nw. lol. dunno hw to describe wat i'm thinking nw. ask mi on msn if u wanna noe more.

i'm feeling down these few days and this piece of news reach mi. is it plain coincidence or is it fate playing on us again..

i'm down wif emo

haiz... lately my 'still thinking of her' syndrome is ocurring again.. damn this is full crap of bullshit. wasn't i supposed to forget her le ma.. i think this going nowhere. i began to hate looking at myself in the mirror every morning and tellin myself i dream of her again last night.. this pain is unbearable. fcuk.
i was bother by this dream which i had some days ago. inside this dream we are still together. she looked sad and depressed, so i hugged and console her. i forgot wat i say but she was saying this, "jianan i noe u are being nice blar blar blar.." i cant really recall everything she says.. but i remember she did say this, "but whenever i need you, he was there instead of u." that's like a stab to my heart again.....
CRAP even inside a dream i still hear this..isn't dream suppose to be nice and sweet hw come i dream of this fcuking scene. i guess i'm having a nightmare then.
yes i got to admit sometimes i envy my frenz who are in relationships. i mean who the hell in this world dun wan to be love?! look at myself, my life is totally turned upside down!! yes yes i hear you people saying you dun really need a girl to survive. i agree with u guys totally. but i think i'm one person who hates loneliness. i dun believe in fairy tales love stories.. fairy tales onli exist in a place call 'neverland' and the place i'm living is called 'REALITY'. and to tell you the truth, REALITY sucks. dun think so? then i guess you are being naive le.

i'm a fcuker, loser and a nobody in this reality

nothing happen much during this week. if u read tric or peiqi blogs, u shd noe tat dlb O kena police raid on Good Friday's eve, which totally spoil my clubbing. aniwae tat day clubbing wasn't realli fun la. not high is wat i can onli say.
I must thank lao jie for her help on certain matter. jie zhen si xie xie ni le. but i still won't treat u de.. hahaahahahah. nw the thing finally settle le and there shd be no more bad feelings le ba. i hope i hope.
so tml marks the start of the new semester.. i would say i like my timetable veri much because it is veri slack!! haha everyday veri early go home wor.. haha.. tml also can see new year 1s into DMD (i would conisder them as kum kong kias). so after sch is sight seeing wif tric for nie nie newbies

sleepless nite

damn.. i hate sleepless nite.. keep tossing and turning until cannot sleep. so many thoughts inside my head. is it true tat u keep mentioning sumone name before ur sleep u will keep thinking of her tat nite?? it happen to mi.. shit to the fullness man!! drink again to make myself sleep. in the end nearly late for work todae.. i so hate myself............ =(

i so wish whenever i close and open my eyes, time will turn back over and over again

Bukit Panjang Woodlands And Alcohol Part 2

yesterday was one of my very good primary school friend birthday.. Shelly happy 19 birthdayto you!!

Saturady 08/04

i was invitied to go to Shelly bdae celebration last nte. i left home ard 4 plus at first to meet yan, yi rong and sw at orchard to do some shopping. i was trying to see if i could find Shelly a present too. i abit pai sei to go up dere empty handed ma. we had our late lunch at MOSburger. yan as usual went photo shooting again. -_-"

after tat we head down to Wheelock, far east and herren.. i saw a belt at far east.. it look damn cool but it cost $34 something.. i dun think i will spend so much on a single belt.. so end up i bought nth for myself and Shelly, yan bought a pair of earring, yi rong a shorts and sw a NIKE bag.. wha rich basket.. haha we went to cine dere to eat DQ while waiting for toad to arrive. they head down to clarke quay to look for the 'chee hong' bear while i travel further down to boat quay to meet up wif Shelly. i was a bit late but luckily they haven cut the cake yet. quite a lot of ppl turn up for her bdae. btw it is held at a ktv pub. well i dunno all of them so i onli talk to Shelly and her bf. but after a few rounds of drinking, every 1 starts to interact with each other le.. on our table was 2 bottles of chivas and 1 martell on the table.. wha power house sia haha.. after 'ta' few glasses of chivas, i began to feel tipsy liao.. then came singing the bdae song and cutting bdae cake.. everybody was having fun and high.. i si bei scare his boss and god father sia.. they two si bei on one leh .. i think i 'ta' wif them almost up to 10 glass... wha.. my head starts to spin and i keep visitng the toliet liao. i remember i sat beside Shelly and both of us are seh like hell. i and her talk about hw time flies coz bth of us are 19 le.. old le..then she suddenly says something to mi la.. i hear le from drunk become nt drunk liao.. haha.. it's a sercet between the 2 of us.. hee.. wat i can onli say is.. 我祝他们两可以永远在一起... 要过得比誰都幸福 wor！！

in the end mi, Shelly and her bf all ma bo haha.. =p love and hate chivas!!!

p/s: i recommend u guys if u wan also can celebrate at the ktv pub too. is at Boat Quay 30A Circular Road 2nd level. the ktv pub is called Cloud Nine. the place is small and cosy plus the boss is veri friendly coz is Shelly god father ma.. haha muz remember bring mi along hor!!!

Bukit Panjang Woodlands And Alcohol Part 1

wow so many many things happen this weekend sia and i gt so much to blog about. Let's start wif this friday ba...

Friday 07/04

we are supposed to meet up as usual and we planned to go to Havelock road to eat bak ku teh one. so i went over to toad hse first to find tat he is dead asleep. Keng also jio mi for a round of dota using toad's com. didnt expect the game last for freakin 90+ min. by the time i left toad hse is like goin to 11 liao.. i was thinking, "die la bear confirm reach liao, confirm wan kill us.." bear at tat point of time was travelling from tampines to havelock road.. wha si bei far sia.. luckily he just reach onli but hor guess wat!? he lost his wallet inside a bus!!! omg.. he just pick up sum1 hp some weeks ago now is his turn to lose something.. this is veri sway sia.. we 2 like veri panic like tat trying to find his wallet but the bear still can veri calm say," ar bo we meet keng 1st, go eat bak ku teh then go find the wallet.." SIAO BO... wallet leh.. summore the bus jux left 15 min ago onli..wah we two like kena stun by him.. we say to him we gonna take cab to the interchange to find the wallet back. The interchange is at Bukit Panjang!!! wha die la.. for those of u who duuno where on singapore is Bukit Panjang.. it is actually veri near Bukit Timah and all the Bukitsssss... and our current location is at Tiong Bahru.. Poki man!! so we hope on to a cab and began our journey. the taxi driver beri gd, he noe we ar lookin for wallet and he speed up and try can see chase until the bus or nt.. like the fast and the furious.. haha.. but didnt manage to catch up.. lol.. u noe hw much the cab fare is?? $11.25!! 11.25= 3 shots at dlb O and tips to the cashier and blur blur.. so we quickly go to the office and ask if there's any lost and found.. they say dun haf but they pass a no. to bear and tell him to call to see if there is hope of finding it.. so he called and a few mins ltr they called back and say they found it.. haha so heng sia.. BUT the wallet now is at WOODLANDS DEPORT.. -_-"""" and they say that we haf to go collect it nw.. wha... the 3 of us steam sia.. WOODLANDS leh.. i think i have been to dere onli less than 10 times in my life.. lucky the trans island uncle allows us to take a off service bus to woodlands.. whoo.. a whole new exprience.. we like "owning" the bus.. haha damn fun inside.. so finally reach dere and took back the wallet.. nw the jia lat thing is we have to travel from woodlands back to pp.. wha.. the cab fare is again is $18+++... but heng nt i chu coz the first i cover all the fare liao.. in the end we eat supper at jackson place.. bear treat us.. 应该的！！哈哈 the whole journey madness takes us 3 hrs.. totally shag but we haf lotsa fun!!!


As you can see we comp 1/3 of singapore within 3 hrs.. wah lau liew..

I salute u, zhong!!!

I'm totally speechless.. Zhong you are the man!! clap hands*clap hands

Moi.Sucks.Network

veri sleepy during work coz onli slept 4 hrs+ then come to work.. summore todae the aircon very cooling.. last nite after work went over to bear hse for mahjong session with sw and brandon.. i didnt realli wan to go la but had to gif face ma plus they short of 1 person.. so as a result i lost 1o bucks again.. haha.. until the last round then i start to win, but all my 'tai' so small,, win little back onli nia nt enuff to cover up my lost.. =( but nvm la getting my pay liao, so can afford to spend a bit. i'm saving up to buy a leather belt, a CD and cash for clubbing session on the 13 of April. speaking of which, i haven decide where to go.. had a hard time choosing between MOS or dlb O. I told toad before i will bring him to MOS to look look and it's a thursday nite so RnB at Main Arena. but hor sw want go dlb O for drinks leh(i miss their lambo and shots...) hmmm.. tough decision.. maybe leave it to the others to choose la..

ytd nite some crap thing happen also. if u guys happen to be online ytd nite and saw my msn nick and wonder why rite. this is the reason: ytd i was checking my friendster then i realise she viewed my profile!! i was like OMG.. haha.. but i dunno hw cum she view mi la.. i cant remember whether i gt use my acc to view her before or nt lol.. i told tric abt it and she told mi quickly add her la.. so in order to show tric that i have BALLS.. i added her.. hehe but when zhong noes abt it, he starts to suan mi sia even gif mi her msn add ask mi to add her.. ccb.. okay this time my balls shrink a bit.. so i hesitate for a while.. when i made up my mind to add her.. guess wat!? MSN says that right now they cant update my address book now, sorry for any inconvenience.. KNNBCCB LA.. stupid MSN!!! NOW I GOT THE BALLS TO ADD HER UR FREAKING SYSTEM DIE!! GO EAT SHIT LA..
sometimes technology sucks man...

没想过原来。。。

我从就没想过原来其实这几个月来我都在骗自己，可是我已经想通了。 就如我妈说的， 你还戴着戒指 她知道你在等她吗？我想我是一个傻瓜吧。 其实原来放下了，我心情轻松多了。 少了那些期待， 换回来多点自由和快乐。 我们应该各自过着自己的生活，而不是被过去牵住。

嘉丽 我知道我不能成为你的白马王子 只希望你选对了选者并且过的很幸福很快乐 我忠心得祝福你们。