bon

finally i have decided and make up my mind. i'm going for it. i guess i wasn't being truthful to myself all this while.

like what bear says, "if it she is so damn bloody hell good, go for it. don't wait until till she's gone then you keep cursing yourself like a bady boy like you always do." True, i always hesitate. giving all sorts of excuses to myself and acting like i'm the victim to this reality.

"time to move on." i heard it going through my mind.
this isn't the first time i said it, but i hope that this will be my last.

Yes, thoughts of elina will still surface on my mind. but let's just put that to be past tense. seriously.

at least i hoped that i could say it to myself, "I got do ma!!"

Cheers, praying for everytihing.