i'm down wif emo

haiz... lately my 'still thinking of her' syndrome is ocurring again.. damn this is full crap of bullshit. wasn't i supposed to forget her le ma.. i think this going nowhere. i began to hate looking at myself in the mirror every morning and tellin myself i dream of her again last night.. this pain is unbearable. fcuk.
i was bother by this dream which i had some days ago. inside this dream we are still together. she looked sad and depressed, so i hugged and console her. i forgot wat i say but she was saying this, "jianan i noe u are being nice blar blar blar.." i cant really recall everything she says.. but i remember she did say this, "but whenever i need you, he was there instead of u." that's like a stab to my heart again.....
CRAP even inside a dream i still hear this..isn't dream suppose to be nice and sweet hw come i dream of this fcuking scene. i guess i'm having a nightmare then.
yes i got to admit sometimes i envy my frenz who are in relationships. i mean who the hell in this world dun wan to be love?! look at myself, my life is totally turned upside down!! yes yes i hear you people saying you dun really need a girl to survive. i agree with u guys totally. but i think i'm one person who hates loneliness. i dun believe in fairy tales love stories.. fairy tales onli exist in a place call 'neverland' and the place i'm living is called 'REALITY'. and to tell you the truth, REALITY sucks. dun think so? then i guess you are being naive le.

i'm a fcuker, loser and a nobody in this reality

nothing happen much during this week. if u read tric or peiqi blogs, u shd noe tat dlb O kena police raid on Good Friday's eve, which totally spoil my clubbing. aniwae tat day clubbing wasn't realli fun la. not high is wat i can onli say.
I must thank lao jie for her help on certain matter. jie zhen si xie xie ni le. but i still won't treat u de.. hahaahahahah. nw the thing finally settle le and there shd be no more bad feelings le ba. i hope i hope.
so tml marks the start of the new semester.. i would say i like my timetable veri much because it is veri slack!! haha everyday veri early go home wor.. haha.. tml also can see new year 1s into DMD (i would conisder them as kum kong kias). so after sch is sight seeing wif tric for nie nie newbies